Birthday Wish for Ms. Pelican

This birthday song is dedicated to Ms Pelican who calls me Mrs Madhouse in her blog. She is turning 17 today and all of us from the Madhouse Family (DITC, MITC, LP and LA) wishes her all the best in her future undertakings and SPM!!!!

Awaken

In the many years of marriage, there were many worldly temptations placed in front of us and there were many friends and relative who insisted that we are able to acquire bigger houses or expansive car with our status and earnings. We just laughed their ideas off with some silly answer, kept quiet or avoid them totally. This song is a reflection of what myself and DITC feel therefore I shall just post it in my blog to be shared with others.

We were given so many prizes
We changed the desert into oasis
We built buildings of different lengths and sizes
And we felt so very satisfied
We bought and bought
We couldn’t stop buying
We gave charity to the poor ’cause
We couldn’t stand their crying
We thought we paid our dues
But in fact
To ourselves we’re just lying

Oh…I’m walking with my head lowered in shame from my place
I’m walking with my head lowered from my race
Yes it’s easy to blame everything on the west
When in fact all focus should be on ourselves

We were told what to buy and we’d bought
We went to London, Paris and Costa Del Sol
We made show we were seen in the most exlusive shops
Yes we felt so very satisfied

We felt our money gave us infinite power

We forgot to teach our children about history and honor
We didn’t have any time to lose
When we were.. (were)
So busy feeling so satisfied

I’m walking with my head lowered in shame from my place
I’m walking with my head lowered from my race
Yes it’s easy to blame everything on the west
When in fact all focus should be on ourselves

We became the visuals without a soul
despite the heat
Our homes felt so empty and cold
To fill the emptiness
We bought and bought
Maybe all the fancy cars
And bling will make us feel satisfied

My dear brother and sister
It’s time to change inside
Open your eyes
Don’t throw away what’s right aside
Before the day comes
When there’s nowhere to run and hide
Now ask yourself ’cause Allah’s watching you

Is He satisfied?
Is Allah satisfied?
Is Allah satisfied?
Is Allah satisfied?

Oh..I’m walking with my head lowered in shame from my place
I’m walking with my head lowered from my race
Yes it’s easy to blame everything on the west
When in fact all focus should be on ourselves
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Happy Birthday DITC!!!

Phew…I managed to get this posting out before midnite. i’m actually posting this from the hotel that LP chose to cleberate DITC birthday. Since we were all too busy for the past months I’ve decided to treat DITC and the kids for a stay at this hotel. At first DITC thought that it was going to be a long journey to our destination but when i conned him into driving to KLCC and moving on to Jalan Pinang, he was already convinced that I needed to pick something at one of the building there. Anyway he was surprised and never thought that will be staying in the heart of KL.

He was also surprised when he recived his other gift. I should thank my trainee for giving me the brilliant idea.

The Unexpected Journey

For the past months since my birthday, I was not the same person I used to be. Apart from the being a year older I was also embarking another route. It was the unexpected turn and I was overwhelmed with the experience. Never had imagined that I will be invited to a special place in an unexpected way.

The journey took place on the 2nd day of Ramadhan. I knew about the trip three weeks earlier but with the hustle bustle of work and domestic responsibility three weeks passed by too fast. The journey required spiritual readiness and I was in a state of mixed feelings even through the end of the journey and now. I felt small, blessed, happy, anxious and many more. It could be just another journey but every part of me is shouting and telling me that I just cannot be myself and berserah, I need to make this journey special, I need to work hard to get myself prepared and ready to feel blessed in this special pace. I could have gone earlier but I didn’t but when the invitation came by surprise I knew that the time has come for me to make another turn in life and destiny as HE wants it to be.

This is the shot that I got from my iphone from where I was sitting. Most incredible feeling and journey I had ever took and I pray that it shall not be my last.

I went to perform my umrah with 9 other colleagues. Some brought the spouse and some didn’t. I went alone as it was too sudden for me to drag the kids along and if DITC was to follow it would have not been fair for the kids as we have never trained them to be left alone without both of us. DITC made the decision and when he said  “I redha” that i went there by myself it was the final decision. Though difficult to accept I didn’t want to argue or say otherwise..not this time and not on this matter. I just cannot have it my way.

We left for Jeddah on the 12th august 2010 at 3pm. I remembered those many times in the past that my parents have invited me to join them to perform Umrah but I was reluctant.  And now I’m actually doing it on my own, i guess there is a reason for everything. It just broke my heart to be leaving the kids and DITC at the airport. I’ve never been away without the kids and that was a decision that I made after i gave birth to LP 9 years ago. I took a job that doesn’t require me to leave the kids or be away from them, a job that will give me the flexibility to be with the kids whenever they needed me. We can only plan but HE is the All Mighty and All Knowing.

We reached Jeddah 6.45pm local time. That means we were fasting almost 20 hours. But miraculously it was ok for me, I was too nervous on other matters that food is the least thing in my mind. The immigration counter was closed for iftar and to allow the guys to perform their prayers. So we all sat on the floor in front of the counters for our iftar.

Then we embark on another 6 hour journey to Madinah on a bus. We stayed at the Bahaudin Hotel and it was so convenient  and near the women entrace to Masjid Nabawi. I couldn’t stop crying when i first step foot inside of Masjid Nabawi. Before the journey I spent some time re-reading the books on Prophet Muhammad (pbuh) and when I reached there i just couldn’t believe it and I felt closer to my prophet and when I think of all the things that he has done for us Muslims I just wept. We were in Madinah for 3 days before moving on to Mekah. I’m unable to record all my feelings here because there were just too many but what kept me weeping is this though.

” Ya Allah, Ya Tuhanku, kau telah memberiku nikmat sejak aku mengambil keputusan untuk ke sini , sewaktu perjalananku ke sini, ketika ku berada di sini. Aku pohon kepadaMu agar kau jadikan aku hambaMu yang mensyukuri segala nikmatMu dan janganlah diKau sesat diriku setelah Kau telah menunjukkan ku ke jalan yang lurus.”

At the hotel reception prior to the Ziarah Masjid.

Dataran Masjid Nabawi

Buying ice-cream after terawih.

Iftar offering in Nabawi.

in front of masjidil haram

View from my room and walking to masjidil haram

me at Hijaz Palace reception and this is a view in front of the hotel during prayer time.

At Masjid Quba with Atie.

Masjid Terapung, Jeddah.

My Roomates

The staff from three companies under same group – 10 of us minus the spouses.